Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Music makes me happy.

There have been many things that I have read in all these years of my life, a few things I remember and a lot I choose to forget. Some I wish I could retain in the think tank called mind and still a lot more I wish I could adopt as a way of life. Today I decided to look back on things that I actually tried to adapt in my life and their final outcome (and finally one of those blogs which is actually about ME!!!!!)


1. Always speak the truth - I tried and I tried very hard, but always got into trouble for it. Got a good beating from mum when I spoke the truth about spiling ink on her favourite outfit, a miserable cold shoulder from dad when I told him that I was the reason for that broken tail light of his car and a room with two different beds when I admitted that I ruined my sister's project report for school. After being chased by my neighbour's dog for admitting that I stole the mangoes from her orchard, I decided...... what the heck....... and now I'm being me and I hope I'm doing it just fine.


2. Travel to one new place every year - This was one thing that Dalai Lama said and I so much wanted to adopt it. Of course I insisted my dad to follow it the most and he took it pretty well. So instead of taking me to a new place every year, he took me to a new place every month. of course these new places were well within the reaches of the city and they included a trip to the oldest sabzi mandi in town, the next month was a new place called the city "junk yard" and trust me a visit to these new places was not even half as exciting as I thought it would be.


3. Dont be reckless with other people's hearts and dont put up with people who are reckless with yours - I have a long story to say about this but to cut it short, you have no choice when the class romeo hits on you pretty badly or for that matter when you and your best friend land up having a serious kinda crush on the same guy. Phew...... there goes another philosophical bit in the bin.


4. Say " Please" and " Thank you" a lot - Man this one surely got me the title of being so " uncool" along with tons of suggestions to just "chill out". Trust me, in most cases, it was so not worth it.

I may have a hundred other odd experiences to write about my life but I think on a public forum life this, cant let it be a source of entertainment for others.

The moral of the story is what Baz Luhrman describes the best - " sometimes you are ahead, sometimes you are behind........ the race is long, and in the end, its only with your ownself."

Until the next blog...... ciao.

Monday, June 11, 2007

Goodbye..............

Au revoir in French, Auf Wiedersehen in German, Joi wooi in Cantonese, Addio in Italian.

If there is one word I hate to use, it is "Goodbye". To me it symbolises the end of an era, the time that you have actually spent with someone, an end to the memories that symbolise the time that you shared with a person.

They say "Sorry" is the hardest thing to say, but I am of the opinion that "Goodbye" is the hardest word to say. It attaches a lot of emotions to it. If you have ever see teary-eyed people at the airports, railway stations and highways, you will understand the gravity of the word "Goodbye".

Even though you wish love, luck and best wishes to your loved ones and wish they succeed at every step in life, a part of you still wants this moment to freeze and maybe even go back.

Goodbye to me means a whole bundle of emotions in the heart and tears in my eyes and a mental movie of old times flashing before my eyes, an unknown fear of a void that will be created which may or may not be filled in someone's absence and even if it does, it will take a very long time. A feeling of insecurity and lonliness, a feeling of leaving someone you depend on for whatever reason.

The only time I made a complete fool of myself at a public place was when my friend was leaving for her hometown after finishing college, it was just too painful for me to see her leave. For the first time and perhaps the last time..... I cried in public.

Goodbye to me seems like a chapter of life has come to an end, and in some cases the begining of a new one because when you say goodbye to someone, its for the new begining of a new phase, a new career or a new life for either you or them. And like most things in life, its a never ending story.

People come and people go, you want some people to stay in your life and you hope for some others to walk out, but you or me do not control the reins of time, rather its the time that determines when, how and to whom you say "goodbye".